Coupled Surrender 2- Kyle's Report

Coupled Surrender 2- Kyle's Report 

Dear Mistress Mercury;

            I started working on the session report the day after the session we had on Friday. I had debriefed it with Kate, I went through the session alone in my mind with my eyes closed, and I made notes of my recollection. I think I did it to savor the experience we have had. The afterglow-sensation was especially strong at Saturday. I struggled to fall to sleep on Sunday, because the experience was still so strong. I think my strong afterglow was both due that an experience like this was something I had dreamed of for very long, but of course also because of the brilliant way I felt Mistress was managing the session, as well as experiencing it with my partner. On Monday I really started the proper writing of the report.

            I managed to go in to the session with low shoulders, trying not to mentally prepare or overthink too much, but taking it one step at the time. Trying to leave it with me being sure my body was prepared. Our correspondence with Mistress, and watching some of her videos on Youtube had also given me a sense of security on beforehand. Thank you, Mistress, for that! I would surprise my past self that I could actually do something this wild. Wild in a bold sense, in an adventurous sense, in a kick ass sense – not in a wrong sense. I do have a strong kinky side to me. I have been lucky to meet my partner who puts up with this side. We share a playful attitude towards life, we want freedom and fun. Somehow this led us to Mistress, and a superhot, and intellectually rewarding experience.

            But okay, the session itself. In sum I would use the following words:  Encouragement, emotional acceptance, meaningful gratification, nurturing, safety, joy, educating, guidance, spiritual, pleasure, inspiration. As I write this part, it becomes apparent to me that these words were elements I wasn’t prepared for. I was more fixed on my sexual anticipation, not the intellectual aspects. The satisfaction of exploring the kinks with you together with Kate was certainly there – but Mistress also opened up a new door, to another side of kink; The deeper psychological and spiritual aspects. The way Mistress connected breath and sounds - to touch and physical sensations, I think gave another type of long-lasting arousal than the purely “wanting to cum aimed arousal” , that I am used to feeling. Hence the afterglow. The cuddling at the end, was also a really great experience of aftercare. So, the session now feels as bit an awakening for me, in a spiritual territory I thought I had no interest in, and therefore  had abandoned. Now I’m thinking; Why didn’t I see before that I could connect spirituality to kink before? I am very surprised by this. To not know, or to be ignorant can be a shield, and Mistress helped me lay down that armor and opened me up instead. 

             I want to account for more of what I felt during session. I loved seeing and feeling Mistress touch and play with Kate. Both as a tease, almost with a sort of cuckhold-feel, and feeling that Kate enjoyed it. Everything Mistress let us experience together was exciting. Perhaps the most importing thing we got to do together was submitting together. I also became very glad when you integrated Kate in the domination of me, like with the foot worship and fingering scene, and the pegging and face sitting scene. These “double-domination” scenarios were truly dreams coming true. I so enjoyed feeling below both of two so lovely women.

            I was surprised by the sensation of the impact play, the elements of cbt, and bondage.  I really enjoyed those sensations more than I have done earlier in my life. It also made me feel very “put in my place”, which I really enjoyed. I was also very surprised by the “pegging-outwards” Mistress did. It was a totally new and strong feeling. The nipple clamps also felt better than I had anticipated, as I often feel I have both a low pain threshold and low pain tolerance. The word “harder” often went through my mind during the impact play, which is quite unusual to me. I did though feel at the edge of sometimes, in a good way, hence saying “olala” a lot in an effort trying not to curse. I would however have felt very safe to let mistress know if an 8 was reached.

            The tone of voice was very spot on how I enjoy playing with verbal degrading. I love the verbal side of kink. I felt this especially when Mistress called me “boy” and Kate “good girl”. I also felt a sort of nurturing connecting to the verbal play, like when Mistress said “ so its room for some personal development”, during the deep throat training, after I said I not yet had done that to a man. I identify as heterosexual, but I can fantasize about being used or being made to satisfy a man by women, so Mistress tapped right into this kink by only saying that. The jaw massage and knocks on the chest during the deep throat play also was an eye opener regarding this sort of play.

            I have a weakness for beauty. How this works is that I can struggle quite a lot to keep eye contact with beautiful women. I think I feel a bit inferior, and it has usually taken me more time to be able to keep eye contact in these cases, and not avoid it. So when Mistress looked into my eyes, while showing me what sounds to make, I first became nervous, but I came to relax more when I could connect to my breath. It remained intense, but in a good way. That was quite interesting for me to see that I managed to stay in that gaze and not avoid as much as I would have thought.

            I remember thinking how impressive it was that Mistress were able to put so much from our suggestions into the session. How well you must have planned everything, in addition to having such a good sense for seeing where the flow would take us, improvising and making choices from that. I was longing especially much in the session for Mistress´s feet, and it was therefore a climax in itself when Mistress´s shoes and stocking came off in the end. I was really happy Mistress included that in the end.

            I have probably written way too much here, but the experience of the session is creative jet fuel. It was very meaningful to sum the session up for me by writing about it. So, thank you for this homework. I got much inspired with ideas for future sessions.

            I am very thankful for letting me have this great experience. Grateful for how you started the session, how you administered it, and for how you closed it. Warm, compassionate, intellectual, funny, and sexy. I really appreciate that Mistress did so much explaining during the session, facilitating procedural learning, not just in the moment satisfaction. I admire how you do what you do with all my heart. Its utterly impressive. I certainly wanna explore more of this new terrain with Mistress.

Yours sincerely, Kyle