Embracing Mommy Domme by Carl

Session report from September 2025

Finally finishing up my session report, over a month after the session. As I’m writing this, I wonder why I delayed so much. It’s not something I delayed after my first two irl sessions with Mistress. But I see more and more tendency to avoid getting into stuff that are demands for me – even though I know I need it. I still haven’t read the book Mistress wanted me to read about existential kink – despite owning it for a half a year now.

My aim for the session was to tap deeper into my “mommy domme” kink, to see if it’s something that feels right in irl play – and not just as a fantasy. In an online session we had half a year ago ish, Mistress asked me of why I think I have this kink. We then found out it might be because I crave demands and structure – as well as being given warmth from a motherly character. I won’t say I have any traumas with a big T – but I’ve missed being the one receiving care as well as control from a female figure – instead or in addition to being the one giving it to others.

The session in itself became rewarding and intense, physically and emotionally. We went deep into the mommy domme kink. I was allowed to call Mistress Mommy throughout the session. I settled into to using that title early – and it felt meaningful, safe and… totally right.  To do breast and foot worship – in the context of calling Mistress “Mommy” increased the pleasure I as much as I had hoped. I also enjoyed receiving tasks, as cutting up lime for her drink (even though I did it wrong) – and it I felt proud for managing to wear the humbler. We did a lovely aftercare. 

So well… check. The “Mommy Domme kink” was a success emotionally and pleasure-wise.

On the other side of the pleasure – was bumping and scratching into underlying emotions inside of me I wasn’t aware of before. Mistress saw that I have difficulties in feeling anger and letting it out. I also can’t orgasm when someone else in charge than me. I felt a big sub drop for about two weeks after session – and Mistress has followed that up in a very supporting manner. I’ve realized that I am also a man who suppress feelings sometimes, more than I like to admit.

I’ve since adopting saying mommy more and more with my partner – and it adds to our intimacy in very fulfilling way. To acknowledge that I now get more of what I have craved for so long, both with Mistress and with my partner has been overwhelming. Even though it was difficult – It was important for me to step into this – and it was always safe even though it was overwhelming. I still have reservations for tapping into anger. I’m not sure of ways to let it out yet relationally. And I see that a price to pay for rewarding intimacy – is to see sides of yourself you should deal with. Or perhaps it’s a bonus… Maybe it’s better to think that instead. Regardless, I am still on a journey – but a big piece of my kink is now settled in me, and that I am happy for.